Don't Let Go

Have Your Way

2010-08-05T03:28:00.000-07:00

I am back at uni. I'm almost done with my 2nd weeks and I'm already getting sick of it. I think it's just having to get back into routine and getting used to it. After a month and a half of doing absolutely nothing you can see how hard it is to be following a whole new timetable. So far classes have been pretty good and right now I'm just having to cope with the work load. On top of that I've been working and doing some full day shifts which leave me unmotivated to do any work once I get home.

Anyway so I'm now an aunt, which is pretty exciting. I can't wait to see my little nephew. From what I know of he does not have a name as of yet. It's pretty funny because he was born on Tuesday night and I ended up finding out on Wednesday night. I came home from work and was talking to my mum, we were probably talking for a good 15-20 minutes and then she just said. You sister had her baby. I was so shocked because it wasn't the first thing she told me when i got home and that fact I had to coax it out of her.. hehe. I've seen some photos and I think he takes more resemblance of my sister.

When i got home from work today.. the first thing my mum told me she was going to Sydney for the weekend. Looks like I have most of the house to myself. hehe There's nothing better then knowing that your parents aren't gonna be home for a few days.. I have some freedom.. not like i didn't have it in the first place.

I better get some work done.. otherwise the homework pile will double by this time next week.

Careful

2010-07-15T21:21:00.000-07:00

Once again another Paramore tune hehe. I put this one up specifically because I'm in some of the footage even though you cannot see me.. hehe But the most exciting thing is that they're coming back in October and I have tickets to go! Enough about that...

I have one more week of holidays and pretty much everyone will be back at uni by next week which means i'll be all alone and just settling down before uni starts. I should probably clean my room as well it looks like a bomb site. Most of the holidays have been spent either working, running around doing errands, seeing people, recovering from being sick and of course just hanging out. These holidays were really great because i got to catch up with friends I hadn't seen for ages.

I'm ready to go back into a new semester and completely working very very hard seeing as the subjects aren't really my forte. Good news is that I passed all my subjects although the uni hasn't posted up 2 of my marks yet. And I'm very happy to say I received a HD for my Professional Development class where i was receiving some very slack work from one other team member. I really have to thank God for that because I was freaking out that because of that one person all of us would suffer in our marks.

Right now I'm recovering from a cold so i better go and get some rest before Fungus tonight so i'm nice and energetic. =D

God Bless

Down

2010-06-24T04:43:00.000-07:00

This song has been my obsession since i started holidays. I've just realised that the CW have used this song with almost every show I watch on their channel. Anyway I hope you enjoy..

The holidays have been quite disappointing mainly because there aren't many people to hang out with since most people are still going through exams and are studying hard. speaking of studying.. my subjects for next semester are quite intense. The subjects that I'll no doubt fail are Personal Financial Planning, Commercial Banking and Finance, Corporate Law and Law of Financial Institutions and Securities. Yikes! I'm also really anxious to find out results. Results will be released on July 12th which feels like ages, I just want to rip off the band-aid especially since I feel as though I did pretty well compared to last year. One thing I do know is that I did receive a HD for my Professional Development classes which is a big deal seeing as I had one particular team member let the whole team down and a person who was a friend is no longer. He did say some offensive things to me and just didn't co-operate with people and never has his work done on time. I was left picking up his slack and chasing him around which is something you shouldn't expect in Uni.

I am nervous for the Professional Development classes that need to be done next year. Seeing as it's the last year you go off with a bang! The final assignment is a big deal. The whole team has to present a business concept to a board of directors and afterward there is a 20 minute Q&A. Something to look forward too ey.

I'm going to be an Aunt soon.. My sister just sent me a picture of the last ultra sound before the baby is born. I'm might just have to go to Sweden to visit the kid. It's a boy just to let you know. =D.

Wimbledon is finally here. I can't wait to watch the continuation of the epic 10 hour match from last night. They both looked exhausted and Isner just couldn't break. I really do hope he wins. Good news for the Roddick fans as he went into the 3rd round. Yay!

I have about a month of holidays left. I need to start occupying my time with little projects to do. I could learn how to cook?? Or do some artsy stuff to hang in my grandma's room?? I have no idea what I'm going to do But I'll figure it all out.

God Bless.

Neutron Star Collision

2010-06-04T20:57:00.000-07:00

With Absolutely no motivation to study i find myself blogging =D.. I'm happy to say that this time next week I will be freeeee as a butterfly. With all my assignments handed in for the semester and all my exams next week I'm done for my first semester of the year. I've been thinking a lot mainly whether I've done enough to successfully pass my subjects, I really don't want to repeat my subjects it is demoralising. anyway better go study nowwww...

Liquid Confidence

2010-05-18T01:38:00.000-07:00

I have been M.I.A for a while. So sorry. There's nothing much to post about at the moment. Just going with the cracks at uni with exams in... 3 weeks away? I still have assignments to get done and all so it's kinda hard to study for exams at the moment for the subjects i have finished lectures for.

The last time i posted i have been and come back from Malaysia which was awesome. Although i kinda didn't enjoy it half the time because my family was there (mum, grandma and aunt). Don't get me wrong I love them but to some point they will drive u nuts! And most of the time was spent waiting around for people which is ridiculous. Even with that stuff i enjoyed it. I got to go places i have never been to and some new places which was awesome. anyway i have heaps to do at the moment so i best be off.. I'm pretty sure no-ones reading this.. =D

The Only Exception

2010-03-06T15:43:00.000-08:00

The last couple weeks have been stressful, fun and busy. There is just so much going on right now it's been hard to keep up with everything at once. So what to talk about first??

Alright the 1st week of uni was pretty good nothing too bad. I'm loving my timetable to some extent. I tried to squash as much as possible to one day so that i would have 3 days a week of uni. So i ended up with 6 straight hours on Mondays, 9-12 on tuesdays and 6-9pm on thursdays. The only problem with the thursdays is that night class do not like that one bit! but it's a little on the upside. i could be making more money during the day then if i were to be working after the lecture. Everything was pretty much introductory so nothing too interesting.

I should write about Paramore concert but i dunno how to explain it. but it is a memory that is forever burnt in my brain. It is simply indescribable but they do entertain very well. The best concert I've been to even with the injuries and the pushing and shoving going on in the mosh pit. I loved it!

Anyway the household is kinda in busy cleaning and cooking mode. We're all gettin ready for the wedding on Saturday. So atm the house is as clean as i have ever seen it.. never ever seen it this clean in my life. We're also getting ready for the guests to start arriving from interstate. This is the last stretch then we can relax well kinda anyway.
I should really start cleaning now.. so i better go!

Underdog

2010-03-01T04:53:00.000-08:00

I know it's been a while since I've been here and blogged but i've been on holidays and distracted with other things. I've never really have much to write about either. That's right I live a very sad life.

Did u like the music?? i hope so.. =D have fallen in love with this band slight before they were on tour with Paramore and saw them at the sideshow. They were awesome! very memorable. thought i might drop by for a quick sec i will share about the paramore sideshow later on.. need my rest for uni tomorrow.. ugh..

Fallin' For You

2009-11-01T03:17:00.000-08:00

Exams are coming very soon.. 3/4 of my exams are after cup day so there is going to be cramming for this week.. then a whole week of studying before my last one. I know all this will come fast. I can't wait for my first year of uni is finally finished.. but i also can't wait for the rest of the year has in store for me. i thought i might take a little break from economics to write here. Anyway with the holidays drawing near i'm waiting for all this fun to come.. i have some plans on what i want to do.

I've really gotten into reading after the whole twilight saga and the host.. my next book will be the time travellers wife. The movie is coming out soon and i've heard great things about the book. After that i have no idea what i'm going to read.. Along with the dork road i wanna start doing puzzles.. these are mainly for the days when it's waaaayyyy too hot to do anything at all. =D.

I would love to go on a road trip down to rye/rosebud area and stay there for the week.. i think it could be fun. With getting my license i want to go on alot more road trips...

I'm not quite sure what else i want to do but now it looks like i'll be planning for new years so once exams are over i need to plan and book the apartment.. yikes,, i think most of them will be book out.

There are so many movies that are already out and coming out very very soon and the includes nxt year (lol).. and i wanna see them all.. hopefully i'll be able to get them all accomplished.. so there is...

New Moon (of course)
Couples Retreat
Whip It
Time Travellers Wife
Remember Me
Valentine's Day
Dear John
Eclipse
When In Rome

back to studying i guess.. wish me luck..

Miracle

2009-10-27T21:21:00.000-07:00

"I'm not going cause i've been waiting for a miracle and i'm not leaving... I won't let you give up on a miracle when it might save you."

I think i've shared this song before.. but it's one of my favourites so how can you blame me? =D

I'm just taking a little break from studying at the moment.. I have been semi motivated the past week with it being swotvac and all but i found a way to enjoy this time that i have before my exams while studying by studying in the sun. Most of my exam prep is based on mainly reading anyway. I was outside in the sun for about 4 hours straight and as i expected would happen i had burned however isn't as bad as my kooyong burn about 2 years ago. I have music pumping into the backyard and sit there for hours reading and highlighting. So this past week of studying has been semi productive.

anyway car update.. well at the moment there is no update. My sister isn't budging and at the point where i kind of need a car there is still nothing. It's getting quite frustrating on my part anyway. I'm pretty sure to those who have to drive me around as well... i don't see the point of having my license at the moment... i probably should've waited a little longer to get it. Anyway... cars i have been looking at mainly because i have no choice they've been everywhere ever since i've 'annouced' i wanted them... are da da da dummm...

Impreza
Mazda 3
Honda Jazz.. i guess.. =P
I am falling in love with SUV's too.. =D for a known reason but not inclined to say why

anyway i better get back to studying... and good luck to everyone with exams

Meet Me On The Equinox

2009-10-25T03:53:00.000-07:00

This song isn't something i'd usually listen to but it has grown on me a fair bit. =D This is what gets me in the mood to get ready for the movie to get released.. i'm waiting as patiently as possible.. lol

I have finished my 1st year of uni and am going into my swotvac week before the exams roll in. The worst part of it is that da da da dum... i've fallen sick and in no mood to study.. so have been taking it easy and resting for the very very long study days for the rest of the week ahead... i guess my body hasn't taken the late nights and early mornings i've been having and is causing havoc. On top of that i haven't been sleeping all that well for the last couple weeks.

Can't wait till all my exams are all over and done and i get over this cold.. i should get some rest right now.. have to be in perfect shape tomorrow for some hardcore studying.. lol =D

Here We Go Again

2009-10-04T19:50:00.000-07:00

Daylight savings ruined just about my sunday and most of my monday morning.It goes to show i'll never have to change the time on my phone ever again because it seems nokia had it covered. This means that i was an hour ahead of everyone time wise for the whole of sunday. The whole day yesterday was spent on working on a group assignment and yes i did almost everything. i decided to take a break when i was forced away from my laptop and finishing touches of work because my mum wanted to talk to relatives in Germany.

I didn't sleep till 4am stressing about the assignment and decided that reading would make me fall asleep it did... kinda. My alarm was set to go off at 8:30 which it didn't so i got a wake up call at 10 from a girl from work. not noticing the time i jumped when i saw 10 i was completely late! i still had to print off the assignment and they the other members to do their evaluations and sign everything. Rushing out of the house and running to the bus stop i ran into james and then marcus on the bus. Telling my story to marcus he told me i had ages before my lecture... still thinking i it was 10:30 i told him no in disbelief.. he told me it was 9:30 i still didn't believe him and then knew where i went wrong in changing my time.. ah..

anyway that drama is over and gone. I have 3 more weeks of uni and then a week of swotvac.. i have 3 consecutive exams in 3 days and then 1 last one a week later. I can't wait for this first year to be over. The faster the better and i can get on to concentrating onto more relaxing things like reading, puzzles and getting the high score on bejewled and of course the ability to visit my grandma every day and working too. Within the next 3 weeks i have 2 more comprehensive assignments due in the last 2 weeks.. lets just hope i can do it well and not fail any subjects this semester.

After a week off uni it's a little hard to get back into routine.. my sleeping patterns are going to be way off. I have a hour before my next class and have neglected to eat or drink anything so better go grab something quick..

oh yes.. i forgot to mention we're drawing closer to november.. i can't wait for the release of new moon. I've heard or rather read that Robert Pattinson and Kirsten Stewart could possibly be coming to Australia for the premiere... it's an exciting thing well for me anyway.. i'll be in full stalker mode like it's january and Aus Open is on... ok yeah no... not really. i also hear ok read that some of the other cast memebers will be here nxt week and are probably already here. anyway starving..

byes

Brand New Eyes

2009-10-02T03:24:00.000-07:00

The new Paramore came out this week.. i got my copy 2 or 3 days before the real release. It doesnt really compare to some of their older stuff but i do love the new album too.. =D here are a couple of my favourites..

I was listening to this the other day and i think it sounds better than the original.. so have a listen

Decode

2009-09-22T04:29:00.000-07:00

Working at Grainstore for a little over a year now and i have come to realise how some of the customers are kind of strange, weird and just plain -_-.. haha

This is a little thing i've decided to start but we have the customers which are the...
"stalkers" - These are those who seem a little too interested in the person they're serving.. and grow attached to a one certain employee.. =D
"loveables" - These are the cute or hotties that come into the bakery that everyone falls in love with.. All the giggles are happening when they come in.
"snobs" - usually in the form of real estate agents.. and some 'soccer mums'.. they tend to be quite rude and yes we dislike them..
"decent neighbours" - these are the employees and owners in the surrounding businesses they are so nice and lovely.

i have now come to a blank.. my over analysing ways as you can probably see.. haha this was the only thing i could think of to get out for studying for accounting info systems..

thank you and goodnight!

Miracle - Paramore

2009-09-18T22:52:00.000-07:00

Let The Flames Begin

2009-09-17T19:03:00.000-07:00

Reporting once again from level 9 of VU.. what surprises.. I need and should be studying now for my eco test however.. it's all kinda of a lost cause. i have no idea why. today is alot quieter than the other day.

Last night was alot of fun. It was Wendy's birthday and we went out for dinner and coffees and chat. It was quite and entertaining night and the entertaining factor was recorded.. however none of that will be leaked for purposes obvious to man. lol it is safe to say that even an espresso shot will not keep me up at night.. who would have thought? however it is the most disgusting thing i have ever tasted.. never having pure shots of coffee ever!

ok i better get going and study my demand and supply, elasticity and costs.. i have to admit i know very little

feels so good

2009-09-16T03:59:00.000-07:00

there is some good news on the horizon..
My Grandma is coming back to Melbourne!!
wooo she'll be as soon as monday or tuesday!!!
It is the best news we have received in months...
The last 4 months have been tough on everyone especailly my grandma..
I'm so glad that we have been blessed with such a miracle and everyone praying. =D
THANK YOU!!!

Fences

2009-09-13T21:33:00.000-07:00

At the moment i'm sitting on level 9 of the uni.. where all the students hang out and study.. It's usually so loud here it's hard to concerntrate even with music pumped up really loud in your ears. I just got back from my long sit down lunch and my initial plan to start my part of a group essay has failed. These days i find it hard to concerntrate on anything my mind has been running on a million miles an hour trying to think about anything and everything.

With my recent obsession with the twilight saga all i've been doing is reading instead of doing my uni work and i find my committment to my uni work is lacking. At the moment i'm starting The Host but as soon as i start reading i'm thinking about assessments and tests and start to question my committment. Right now theres just so much to think rather than doing work. Anyway the next 2 weeks will be spent studying to tests and assessments. There are a few of those in the next couple weeks.
Speaking of Twilight I'm actually quite proud of myself and my efforts i have never read that much in that amount of time in forever. I can't wait till the movies are released they're meant to be better that the first film and their dodgy effects. =D

Relient K was at Youth Alive in Saturday night and it was one great set done my them. I have to admit i was a little out of depth and quite clueless with some of the songs they performed.. but they are completely awesome. =D

I have thought about this for the past month.. I NEED A CAR!!! i've explained it to my family but they seem to just ignore what i have to say and always go back to the fact about how it was like when they had it. It always leads to the same lecture and they always seem to point out how im spoilt.. yes yes. But i'm so dependent on everyone else and i hate to be that way. so until my family understand that i'll be car less.. it can get really frustrating.
The first time i did drive without an instructor was probably the best feeling.. it was freedom.. mind you it wasnt my car.. the issue with cars is always on my mind...

Anyway i better stop writing and start getting ready to get a move on to class... haha datebase entry isnt that the most exciting class?? ugh

New Moon

2009-09-12T17:40:00.000-07:00

Are you ready?? haha can't wait for the release the offical trailer isnt as great as the one above.

Ignorance - Paramore

2009-09-08T05:06:00.000-07:00

Angel - Kate Voegele

2009-09-02T08:09:00.000-07:00

I’ve said it once and I’ll say it again

I’ve got something hanging over my head

I was laying on your shoulder

Perfectly content

Until you told me all over again

I ain’t got no sob story to write

But just like everyone else I’m living this life an

Don’t need to win me over

And there ain’t no other side

To shelter me from all the wrong where I decide

But you say we don’t mess around

You’ve got no freedom to come down

We don’t take angels from the sky

Oh no

But we don’t mess around

You’re meant to be among the clouds

Cause you’re an angel

But that’s a lie

Oh oh oh

Well I suppose you think that I’m so flattered to hear

That I’m a whispered conscience in your ear, yeah

And that’s exactly the reason that I never fit in here

Well nothings ever that black and white my dear

But you say we don’t mess around

You’ve got no freedom to come down

We don’t take angels from the sky

Oh no

We don’t mess around

You’re meant to be among the clouds

Cause you’re an angel

But that’s a lie

Oh oh oh

I’m not your angel darling

I am never gonna be

I’m not your angel darling

I am never gonna be

We don’t mess around

You’ve got no freedom to come around

We don’t take angels from the sky

Oh no no no

But we don’t mess around

You’re meant to be among the clouds

Cause you’re an angel

But that’s a lie (x3)

Ain’t never gonna be

ignorance

2009-08-31T22:32:00.000-07:00

i just got a haircut this morning at biba... the hair dressers there are all students so it was sone for the low, low price of $25.. =D anyway.. here is the..

Before:

ok probably cant see it there but it's pretty long.. hehe..

and heres the after:

it's so short that it's IMPOSSIBLE to tie my hair... just wait until u see it... this took ages to do..

My 'hairdresser' was quite hesitant and then i became worried about how it would look. every 2 seconds the teachers would be there and watched over what she was doing. EVERYONE was commenting on how much of a change i was getting but all the same commented on how good it would look... i can't believe how short it is now... i still love it though

Misery Business

2009-08-30T20:05:00.000-07:00

There isn't much to write about. I'm at the start of my 2 hour break before my next class. I'm so tempted to leave this minute but firgure it's important that i stay where i am. My friends have either gone home or in their classes so i'm basically all alone. I really hate it when that happens. I've been sitting here for a while listening to my music and playing bejeweled but thought it mayb a little productive to blog. I don't have my other subject books on me to do any work.

Last week i got my licence!! haha but as much as happiness riddles me for getting it on my fisrt go.. it doesn't go to any use at all because i have no car to give it some worth.. lol I'm trying to decide whether i should look for a new car or wait out the 5 or 6 months before my sister leaves so i can buy hers. I've been thinking about what i would buy but still really cant decide what i would get. =D I can't wait until i'm actually able to drive by myself on the open road. That feeling will be delayed for quite a while..

I have been thinking alot about my grandma. Everything is starting to become real that shes moving back. All the paperwork has been semi done and we have the costs for her flight back home and may i say ouch!. But i'm so elated that she'll be back HOME soon enough.

I have been reading the twilight books one after the other.. loving it right now!! i'm onto the last book and all i can say so far is sweetness from the ending of eclipse and the start of breaking dawn. The most sweetest and cutest things have happened in the book i only wish that it could come true for me.. hahaha lame i know... but that is what i call true love...

When it rains

2009-08-28T16:04:00.000-07:00

I feel in love with this song the moment i heard it. enough said.. =D

One Time

2009-08-28T15:45:00.000-07:00

I found this song a couple weeks ago and never really took notice of the name that sung it. and realised it was a 15 year old boy.. was shocked.

Human

2009-08-26T06:25:00.000-07:00

This has been one of my favourite songs for a while now and always seems to make me feel better. They lyrics are just beautiful.

Human - Jon McLaughlin

Can you tell me how we got in this situation,
I can’t seem to get you off my mind,
all these ups and downs,
they trip up our good intentions,
nobody said this was easy ride.

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’ after all

Can we get back to the point of this conversation,
when we saw things through each others eyes,
cause now all I see is ruin and devastation,
we all need some place we can hide inside and

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’

I’m smart enough to know,
that life goes by,
and it leaves a trail of broken hearts behind,
if you feel I’m letting go,just give me time,
I’ll come running to your side,

Can you tell me how we got in this situation,
I can’t seem to get you off my mind cause

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,

After all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’ after all
Any other reasonto stay instead of leavin’after all, yeah

Sydicate

2009-08-24T06:39:00.001-07:00

Lately i've felt not quite myself like somehow i was a little empty? in some way or another... it would be just the drama going on. But for the first time in a long time i actually feel complete and very happy. For the past month there have been struggles, unfortunate events and nothing but bad news.

I've been reporting about the condition about my grandma. Well as soon as we find here a place here for her to stay and get taken care of she'll be sent back to Melbourne. This has been the best information that we've received to date. They also operated on her last week and shes all good. Everything will be sorted very soon and she'll be able to live the happy life and be treated right the way she deserves. I truly believe that she fears my other relatives because of what they've done. I can't wait until everything is sorted and i'll be able to see her again. hopfully this will be the last time i'll have to blog about this situations.

I've gotten into the twilight saga.. i know very its late. i wasn't so interested in it when they first released the first book and i was meaning to read it all before i watched the movie but to tell you the truth it bored me to pieces. I finally watched the move and had the sudden urge to read it. Since then i haven't stopped.. I quickly moved through new moon and now i'm on to eclipse. I see why there is an Edward Cullen obsession. I think girls are looking for that expectation when they find someone. not the vampire part of it of course but by the sweetness of his actions their just so romantic. heart skippingly sweet =D.

I have my driving test tomorrow as much as i should be nervous i'm not. I'm actually quite excited over it and theres a calmming affect happening at the moment. I'm trying to visualise what will happen and the roads but when i think about it... it just blank. My family are quite questionable about whether i'll even get it. I was talking to my instructor the other day and he has confidence in me and just told me not to do anything stupid. hahaha like i could..

Anyway.. i think it's about time i start reading eclipse.. it the only way to keep me calm and smiling.

Falling Over Me

2009-08-16T23:54:00.000-07:00

So much complicated and frustrating things have been going one and i think for the past week and a half i've been fuming and quite i guess depressed with whats been going on. It's had to be here not knowing whats going on. yesterday i was at my breaking point when the parentals came back. I can really see the "enemy" in all this. It's so horrible to think that my eldest uncle the one that was meant to take care of here really wanted her 'departure' like this... so unnatural and the most un-peaceful thing ever. Trying to move her to a facility here will be the hardest thing right now mainly because we need the permission from 'them' and now power will play a huge factor to what will happen next. She's scared of her own son because she has no idea what they could do next. She'll be much safer in here in Melbourne.

I asked myself how could someone do that to their own family? How can they let go so easily?
I have one thing to say to that whole family that gave the doctors permission... I hope you know what you've put yourself in. A life time of alienation from our family and complete exclusion. I hope you can see you won't be forgiven for what you've done. The way you tried to avoid the whole situation was a very cowardly thing to do. This is my goodbye to you forever. You've made it just as easier for me to let go. You don't deserve my respect.

Accounting Info Systems

2009-08-13T18:38:00.000-07:00

i'm in my lecture atm.. i know i shouldn't be on here.. but felt to the need to.. this will be quick
praise the lord. The tube is not being taking out for now.. there has been a huge betrayal between family members.. a whole group have banded together against a couple.. full explainatons will be given in person.. promises... i have been told to always prepared for the worst.. ok gotta go

Believe

2009-08-11T22:38:00.000-07:00

Once again things are starting to get confusing and frustrating on my part. So many things have changed especially the minds taking care of my grandma. At the moment petitions are going around from family to family to appeal the removal of the NG tube. We all believe that she should go of natual means not of starving. However, the plot thickens once again.. A relative of mine authorised the removal and at the moment everyone is i guess in some way 'out to get him'. Lets just hope out appeal works and she'll be left alone for a while now. But if it doesn't work i hope my relative is ready and man enough to tell her what he's done. I was so angry at the start of the week and now i'm just furious. i would never do that to a familu member..

I have found that driving is the only thing that can keep this stuff off my mind. However, it won't quite work that way for a while. I was driving before for some practice and i felt so free and i guess it took everything off my mind. I guess it'll be my other escape once i get my licence in 2 weeks.. well if i get it anyway. I'm feeling quite ready for it and am excited to go for the test as odd as it seems. i feel as though i need to do something or go out to keep it off my mind. When i'm at home it's a constant reminder of the situation and puts me in a spot to just be silent.

Why does drama always have to follow me around?

can't stop the world

2009-08-10T05:33:00.000-07:00

One second somethings decided the next things change. It seems the decision has been delayed, reviewed and discussed at a family meeting. There is a possibility that their minds will not be changed which would cause a very unfortunate and devastaing event.. Enough of this depressing side of me...

To lighten up my day a little Joanne and myself took a little venture for a cupcakes. First going to Degraves st right which is kind of like VU's front door step but found that place to be a little crowded we moved over to the Cupcake bakery on collins.. We took some time out to enjoy and savour our choc mint and red velvet cupcakes. here are a couple photos...

The Choc Mint...

The Red Velvet

I have had a huge craving for desserts... I'm seeing all these dessert places and always wanting to go.. I was walking along collins st and i walked past the Lindt Cafe. It looks so bright and quite up scale and looking at the menu it've very up scale prices but it's still so appealing. I've heard nothing but good reviews... I really want to try it.

Anyway.. should be getting to some reading and online tests.. but please keep praying

Quiet in my town - Civil Twilight

2009-08-09T07:37:00.001-07:00

Today I heard that someone left this earth
That someone disappeared left no mark here
Today I heard that someone just got up and left himself
Lying on the ground

Today is
Today is
Today is quiet in my town
Today is
Today is
Today is quiet in my town

Today two boys disappeared without noise
and I wish that I was them flying somewhere overhead
And tonight in silence, two lovers hate and find
One is bored
One is angry
but neither one of them is right, oh

Today is
Today is
Today is quiet in my town
Today is
Oh, Today is
Today is quiet in my town

Oh, somebody say something
Somebody say something
Somebody say something to me
Oh, somebody say something
Somebody say something
Somebody say something cause I can't take this silence anymore
Anymore

Today is
Today is
Today is quiet in my town
Today is
Today is too quiet in my town

split second

2009-08-09T07:04:00.000-07:00

It's amazing how things change in a split second. One day i was talking about how there was the slightest bit of improvement to my grandma's condition just by being able to go outside. But the next day you're being told horrific news. my family have known since friday however i only found out tonight. A 3rd party has decided to go completely against what i have been praying for months. They've decided to take out her feeding tube and apparently we have no time to argue or to fight for our right of decision as her family. It seems that it'll be coming out tomorrow and thet only informed us on friday. of course theres no time to appeal for our rights because hey never gave it to us in the first place. This has become like a circle. I wish it didn't have to be this way.. anyway i think this is going legal...

Got Dynamite..

2009-08-08T05:13:00.000-07:00

ok just to let you know.. the title's of my blogs are from the songs i'm listening to while i'm writing.. =D anyway..

I found out that the doctors are getting my grandma to actually sit for a couple hours a day. I think she was starting to get bored and sick of being in bed 24/7. They've even been putting her into a wheel chair so she's been able to go outside and is in a slightly higher spirts than what i have been seeing her with. I think being in a bed and inside for the past 2 months has made her quite miserable. I know i would be anyway. I was feeling quite happy when i heard that news.. hopfully i'll get to see her soon.

Anyway i better get to work.. management draft.. how joyful! =D

Trainwreck

2009-08-06T06:46:00.000-07:00

I have seen how slack i have been. The semester has started and an essay plan has been given to us which is due on monday. I have started the plan but have no idea where to go from there and i have also neglected looking for journals. Once i start the words come to me and then escape from my brain. lets just hope i can get some work done soon. I also find it incredibly difficult to understand my accounting info systems questions, my tute is tomorrow and have no idea what their on about but will seek some help on these questions. There is also so much reading to be done this weekend. I feel so behind and its only week 2.

An update on my grandma... She's still in her stable condition and we're still unable to find her a nursing home that will take her. Most facilities are quite hesitant on taking her on because of the feeding tube. As time goes on i feel horrible for not being able to see her. I would love to make the trip over there to send her my love and pray for her i have some many committments here. Many people (mainly the doctors) think she's unable to understand and comprehend what we say or even whats going on. But we're able to see that she understands everything we do. I really miss her so much. I just want to be at her bed side to hold her hand.

I just want to ask everyone to keep praying for her please...

2009-07-30T22:40:00.000-07:00

My first semester of uni was alright however, my results weren't that great but passed all my subjects except 1...
Business Law was my subject i was so determined to pass. I didn't care if i got a HD just as long as i passed mainly because i disliked the lecturer. I was so glad that i passed the subject.

This semester i'm taking...

Business Information Systems
Management and Organisational Behaviour
Economics
Accounting Information Systems

My first week has been pretty good however i have the feeling i'm going to hate Mondays mainly because i'm in lectures and tutes from 8:30 - 4:30 with a couple breaks in the middle. At this moment there isn't that much work to do but i still have yet done the set questions for my monday tutes. =D The weeks ahead won't the be the easiest but somehow i'll get through it. The assessment tasks also are coming up really close i think the closest one is in week 3 gah!

Stop The World - Demi Lovato

2009-07-29T03:55:00.000-07:00

Ohh, ohh, whoa
I don’t know why, I don’t know why
I’m so afraid (so afraid)
I don’t know how, I don’t know how
To fix the pain (fix the pain)
We're livin’ a lie, livin’ a lie
This needs to change (need to change)
We're out of time, we're out of time,
And it's still the same

We can't stop the world,
But there’s so much more that we can do.
You cant stop this girl from falling more in love with you.
You said 'nobody has to know'
Give us time to grow and take it slow
But I'd stop the world
If they finally let us be alone
Let us be alone

I'm hearin’ the noise, hearin’ the noise
From all around (from all around)
I’m on the edge, I’m on the edge
Of breakin’ down (breakin’ down)
Like Bonnie and Clyde,
Let’s find a ride and ditch this town.
So keep it alive, keep it alive
Don’t make a sound.

We can't stop the world,
But there’s so much more that we can do.
You cant stop this girl from falling more in love with you.
You said nobody has to know give us time to grow and take it slow.
But I'd stop the world If they finally let us be alone.
Let us be alone.

I never wanna take that final look,
I’ll turn another page
Wont close the book.

We cant stop the world,
But there’s so much more that we can do.
You cant stop this girl from falling more in love with you.
You said nobody has to know give us time to grow and take it slow.
But I'd stop the world
If they finally let us be alone.
Let us be alone.
Let us be alone…
Alone, ooh, ooh, weee-ah. Alone.

I have moved...

2009-07-29T02:33:00.000-07:00

I have ditched and xanga and moved to blogspot due to problems.

I have realised that my friends at uni are very crazy. Last semester one of my friends Matt tried to make himself pass out to get out of going to Business Law. He tried.. yet failed but felt dizzy afterwards. My other friend Michael and I were talking about it in one of our lectures and he tried to do it and then continued to see how long he could hold his breath.
It's so odd comparing them to my high school friends they're quite immature and... it's indescribable.

Right now.. I have to do some work.. Business Information Systems is completely dull but the work has to be done..