Accounting Info Systems

i'm in my lecture atm.. i know i shouldn't be on here.. but felt to the need to.. this will be quick
praise the lord. The tube is not being taking out for now.. there has been a huge betrayal between family members.. a whole group have banded together against a couple.. full explainatons will be given in person.. promises... i have been told to always prepared for the worst.. ok gotta go

Believe

Once again things are starting to get confusing and frustrating on my part. So many things have changed especially the minds taking care of my grandma. At the moment petitions are going around from family to family to appeal the removal of the NG tube. We all believe that she should go of natual means not of starving. However, the plot thickens once again.. A relative of mine authorised the removal and at the moment everyone is i guess in some way 'out to get him'. Lets just hope out appeal works and she'll be left alone for a while now. But if it doesn't work i hope my relative is ready and man enough to tell her what he's done. I was so angry at the start of the week and now i'm just furious. i would never do that to a familu member..

I have found that driving is the only thing that can keep this stuff off my mind. However, it won't quite work that way for a while. I was driving before for some practice and i felt so free and i guess it took everything off my mind. I guess it'll be my other escape once i get my licence in 2 weeks.. well if i get it anyway. I'm feeling quite ready for it and am excited to go for the test as odd as it seems. i feel as though i need to do something or go out to keep it off my mind. When i'm at home it's a constant reminder of the situation and puts me in a spot to just be silent.

Why does drama always have to follow me around?

can't stop the world

One second somethings decided the next things change. It seems the decision has been delayed, reviewed and discussed at a family meeting. There is a possibility that their minds will not be changed which would cause a very unfortunate and devastaing event.. Enough of this depressing side of me...

To lighten up my day a little Joanne and myself took a little venture for a cupcakes. First going to Degraves st right which is kind of like VU's front door step but found that place to be a little crowded we moved over to the Cupcake bakery on collins.. We took some time out to enjoy and savour our choc mint and red velvet cupcakes. here are a couple photos...

The Choc Mint...

The Red Velvet

I have had a huge craving for desserts... I'm seeing all these dessert places and always wanting to go.. I was walking along collins st and i walked past the Lindt Cafe. It looks so bright and quite up scale and looking at the menu it've very up scale prices but it's still so appealing. I've heard nothing but good reviews... I really want to try it.

Anyway.. should be getting to some reading and online tests.. but please keep praying

Quiet in my town - Civil Twilight

Today I heard that someone left this earth
That someone disappeared left no mark here
Today I heard that someone just got up and left himself
Lying on the ground

Today is
Today is
Today is quiet in my town
Today is
Today is
Today is quiet in my town

Today two boys disappeared without noise
and I wish that I was them flying somewhere overhead
And tonight in silence, two lovers hate and find
One is bored
One is angry
but neither one of them is right, oh

Today is
Today is
Today is quiet in my town
Today is
Oh, Today is
Today is quiet in my town

Oh, somebody say something
Somebody say something
Somebody say something to me
Oh, somebody say something
Somebody say something
Somebody say something cause I can't take this silence anymore
Anymore

Today is
Today is
Today is quiet in my town
Today is
Today is too quiet in my town

split second

It's amazing how things change in a split second. One day i was talking about how there was the slightest bit of improvement to my grandma's condition just by being able to go outside. But the next day you're being told horrific news. my family have known since friday however i only found out tonight. A 3rd party has decided to go completely against what i have been praying for months. They've decided to take out her feeding tube and apparently we have no time to argue or to fight for our right of decision as her family. It seems that it'll be coming out tomorrow and thet only informed us on friday. of course theres no time to appeal for our rights because hey never gave it to us in the first place. This has become like a circle. I wish it didn't have to be this way.. anyway i think this is going legal...

Got Dynamite..

ok just to let you know.. the title's of my blogs are from the songs i'm listening to while i'm writing.. =D anyway..

I found out that the doctors are getting my grandma to actually sit for a couple hours a day. I think she was starting to get bored and sick of being in bed 24/7. They've even been putting her into a wheel chair so she's been able to go outside and is in a slightly higher spirts than what i have been seeing her with. I think being in a bed and inside for the past 2 months has made her quite miserable. I know i would be anyway. I was feeling quite happy when i heard that news.. hopfully i'll get to see her soon.

Anyway i better get to work.. management draft.. how joyful! =D

Trainwreck

I have seen how slack i have been. The semester has started and an essay plan has been given to us which is due on monday. I have started the plan but have no idea where to go from there and i have also neglected looking for journals. Once i start the words come to me and then escape from my brain. lets just hope i can get some work done soon. I also find it incredibly difficult to understand my accounting info systems questions, my tute is tomorrow and have no idea what their on about but will seek some help on these questions. There is also so much reading to be done this weekend. I feel so behind and its only week 2.

An update on my grandma... She's still in her stable condition and we're still unable to find her a nursing home that will take her. Most facilities are quite hesitant on taking her on because of the feeding tube. As time goes on i feel horrible for not being able to see her. I would love to make the trip over there to send her my love and pray for her i have some many committments here. Many people (mainly the doctors) think she's unable to understand and comprehend what we say or even whats going on. But we're able to see that she understands everything we do. I really miss her so much. I just want to be at her bed side to hold her hand.

I just want to ask everyone to keep praying for her please...