ignorance

i just got a haircut this morning at biba... the hair dressers there are all students so it was sone for the low, low price of $25.. =D anyway.. here is the..

Before:

ok probably cant see it there but it's pretty long.. hehe..

and heres the after:

it's so short that it's IMPOSSIBLE to tie my hair... just wait until u see it... this took ages to do..

My 'hairdresser' was quite hesitant and then i became worried about how it would look. every 2 seconds the teachers would be there and watched over what she was doing. EVERYONE was commenting on how much of a change i was getting but all the same commented on how good it would look... i can't believe how short it is now... i still love it though

Misery Business

There isn't much to write about. I'm at the start of my 2 hour break before my next class. I'm so tempted to leave this minute but firgure it's important that i stay where i am. My friends have either gone home or in their classes so i'm basically all alone. I really hate it when that happens. I've been sitting here for a while listening to my music and playing bejeweled but thought it mayb a little productive to blog. I don't have my other subject books on me to do any work.

Last week i got my licence!! haha but as much as happiness riddles me for getting it on my fisrt go.. it doesn't go to any use at all because i have no car to give it some worth.. lol I'm trying to decide whether i should look for a new car or wait out the 5 or 6 months before my sister leaves so i can buy hers. I've been thinking about what i would buy but still really cant decide what i would get. =D I can't wait until i'm actually able to drive by myself on the open road. That feeling will be delayed for quite a while..

I have been thinking alot about my grandma. Everything is starting to become real that shes moving back. All the paperwork has been semi done and we have the costs for her flight back home and may i say ouch!. But i'm so elated that she'll be back HOME soon enough.

I have been reading the twilight books one after the other.. loving it right now!! i'm onto the last book and all i can say so far is sweetness from the ending of eclipse and the start of breaking dawn. The most sweetest and cutest things have happened in the book i only wish that it could come true for me.. hahaha lame i know... but that is what i call true love...

When it rains

I feel in love with this song the moment i heard it. enough said.. =D

One Time

I found this song a couple weeks ago and never really took notice of the name that sung it. and realised it was a 15 year old boy.. was shocked.

Human

This has been one of my favourite songs for a while now and always seems to make me feel better. They lyrics are just beautiful.

Human - Jon McLaughlin

Can you tell me how we got in this situation,
I can’t seem to get you off my mind,
all these ups and downs,
they trip up our good intentions,
nobody said this was easy ride.

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’ after all

Can we get back to the point of this conversation,
when we saw things through each others eyes,
cause now all I see is ruin and devastation,
we all need some place we can hide inside and

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’

I’m smart enough to know,
that life goes by,
and it leaves a trail of broken hearts behind,
if you feel I’m letting go,just give me time,
I’ll come running to your side,

Can you tell me how we got in this situation,
I can’t seem to get you off my mind cause

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,
after all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’

After all we’re only human,
always fighting what we’re feeling,
hurt instead of healing,

After all we’re only human,
is there any other reason why we stay instead of leavin’ after all
Any other reasonto stay instead of leavin’after all, yeah

Sydicate

Lately i've felt not quite myself like somehow i was a little empty? in some way or another... it would be just the drama going on. But for the first time in a long time i actually feel complete and very happy. For the past month there have been struggles, unfortunate events and nothing but bad news.

I've been reporting about the condition about my grandma. Well as soon as we find here a place here for her to stay and get taken care of she'll be sent back to Melbourne. This has been the best information that we've received to date. They also operated on her last week and shes all good. Everything will be sorted very soon and she'll be able to live the happy life and be treated right the way she deserves. I truly believe that she fears my other relatives because of what they've done. I can't wait until everything is sorted and i'll be able to see her again. hopfully this will be the last time i'll have to blog about this situations.

I've gotten into the twilight saga.. i know very its late. i wasn't so interested in it when they first released the first book and i was meaning to read it all before i watched the movie but to tell you the truth it bored me to pieces. I finally watched the move and had the sudden urge to read it. Since then i haven't stopped.. I quickly moved through new moon and now i'm on to eclipse. I see why there is an Edward Cullen obsession. I think girls are looking for that expectation when they find someone. not the vampire part of it of course but by the sweetness of his actions their just so romantic. heart skippingly sweet =D.

I have my driving test tomorrow as much as i should be nervous i'm not. I'm actually quite excited over it and theres a calmming affect happening at the moment. I'm trying to visualise what will happen and the roads but when i think about it... it just blank. My family are quite questionable about whether i'll even get it. I was talking to my instructor the other day and he has confidence in me and just told me not to do anything stupid. hahaha like i could..

Anyway.. i think it's about time i start reading eclipse.. it the only way to keep me calm and smiling.

Falling Over Me

So much complicated and frustrating things have been going one and i think for the past week and a half i've been fuming and quite i guess depressed with whats been going on. It's had to be here not knowing whats going on. yesterday i was at my breaking point when the parentals came back. I can really see the "enemy" in all this. It's so horrible to think that my eldest uncle the one that was meant to take care of here really wanted her 'departure' like this... so unnatural and the most un-peaceful thing ever. Trying to move her to a facility here will be the hardest thing right now mainly because we need the permission from 'them' and now power will play a huge factor to what will happen next. She's scared of her own son because she has no idea what they could do next. She'll be much safer in here in Melbourne.

I asked myself how could someone do that to their own family? How can they let go so easily?
I have one thing to say to that whole family that gave the doctors permission... I hope you know what you've put yourself in. A life time of alienation from our family and complete exclusion. I hope you can see you won't be forgiven for what you've done. The way you tried to avoid the whole situation was a very cowardly thing to do. This is my goodbye to you forever. You've made it just as easier for me to let go. You don't deserve my respect.